Jeeesuuussssss, I thought Ide weigh myself, ya know the beginning of the month, a new year if you will, great I thought, Ive been good the last few days, surely it will show...I have my skinny ass 66kilo or there abouts photo in my bikini on the dresser mirror...sweet yeah
WRONG.
I was 73.2...fucking WHAT?????????????????? Im lazy and now I must just be fucking greedy!!!!
I really need to get my head out of my ass when it comes to food and excercise otherwise Im just gunna be another failure...FUCK AND BUGGA!!!!!!!!
God, Ive been here sooo many times before and Im pissed of with myself, yet still no motivation??? WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME????
I have the same mindset, ie; 'yeah, Im fat and untone' but still I dont care enough about myself to stop eating crap and doing no movement at ALL!!!!!!
Even I want to tell myself to fuck off and deal with it.
Points I make to myself
1- I know what is required to lose weight
2- I know eating allll the wrong food will result in weight gain
3- I know I need cardio and weight training
4- I have all the ww books and guides and points values of fucking everything!!!!!
5-my mind STILL doesnt give a fuck
My clothes are uncomfy and look yuk....man I need a personal trainer.
ok, now Im annoyed...wheres the chocolate??
lol
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
all over
Another year of festivities overrrrrr...phew...ate to much, didnt drink at all cause I just dont so that was easy..all good.....kids had a ball and thats the main thing, santa bought them a Ping Pong table but it has been raining ever since and we cant play it.
I had a huge clean up and went to the dreaded tip....yuk, stink and grose. eewwww some people throw away nasty shit.....but I di find a very thin looking self photo in the process and that has spured me on...my god I got fit and toned. awesome, so I reckon I have done it once and I'll do it again!
Did well today I had a shake for breaky and then a ceaser salad for lunch then meat and veg for dinner. Now if I can only get on that fucking treadmill I would be laughing!!
I had a huge clean up and went to the dreaded tip....yuk, stink and grose. eewwww some people throw away nasty shit.....but I di find a very thin looking self photo in the process and that has spured me on...my god I got fit and toned. awesome, so I reckon I have done it once and I'll do it again!
Did well today I had a shake for breaky and then a ceaser salad for lunch then meat and veg for dinner. Now if I can only get on that fucking treadmill I would be laughing!!
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
2 more days to go and I have 5 days off!!!!!!! cant wait...im in desperate need of a break I think!!
Diet is not going so well, to be honest I cant be bothered 3 days before xmas...
work is good, I really hope they follow thru and put me back up to level 3 after xmas, they better, Ive been back on level 2 now for 5months and Im not happy!! Im doing more ladies cuts now...even though Im as nervous as shit and just wing it and hope Im doing it right!!lol, my haircuts are checked so thats the main thing! I have one today so heres hoping I go ok!! Im happy with my mens cutting, although a teenager was in yesterday and he wanted it funky and it had to be done with a razor and I couldnt do it as I havent done that yet...Im doing neck shaves now with ease to...phew!!
Erica...great to see you agin to, I often think about you!! how is your family..kids ect??
Diet is not going so well, to be honest I cant be bothered 3 days before xmas...
work is good, I really hope they follow thru and put me back up to level 3 after xmas, they better, Ive been back on level 2 now for 5months and Im not happy!! Im doing more ladies cuts now...even though Im as nervous as shit and just wing it and hope Im doing it right!!lol, my haircuts are checked so thats the main thing! I have one today so heres hoping I go ok!! Im happy with my mens cutting, although a teenager was in yesterday and he wanted it funky and it had to be done with a razor and I couldnt do it as I havent done that yet...Im doing neck shaves now with ease to...phew!!
Erica...great to see you agin to, I often think about you!! how is your family..kids ect??
Friday, December 18, 2009
hmmmmm
Oh Behave!!!!!
Hmmm, still abit of a struggle...72 atm...but thats ok, Im hovering around this for the last little bit and to be honest Im too busy and have a lot of stuff going on to really worry about it, Im still watching my points and counting this and that, but Xmas is next week, so......
Im doing heaps of mens cuts now and I dont freak out anymore...much anyway!! I get a bit scared of the old mowhawk and toddlers but of well hey....
I did 2 female cuts today.. a little girl, straight across, do you know that doing a straight haircut is the hardest to do!! and then I did an older ldy who is growing out her layers...I think i took about 3mill off....not scissor happy yet, too chicken to do the chop!!!lol I winged that one as I was just doing what I thought was right...my seniors just keep saying, you'll be right!!! hmm hope so.
cant wait for my 4 days off over xmas too, will be great.
Took the 3 kids to see the xmas lights and we saw this one house that will have to win,,, it is just magnificant. Beautiful, there was a santa in a sleigh and you can get a photo.. couldnt belive what they had done, besides cost a fortune!!
Still having a lot of trouble with my 15yo...he goes nto the city and stays for days at a time, hates everything and everyone...its not just typical teenager stuff either, he is involved with criminals, he is due for community service. He fights and its just terrible.....i cant believe what he has become and blame myself of course. The whole family is very dissapointed and he knows this which is awful.. he needs help and Im not the person to do it...ive lost my boy im afraid and Im quite sad. I just know he is good deep down but he has just lost his way and we dont get along at all anymore...it was always strained because of the way he is, but it has gone to far now.
Hmmm, still abit of a struggle...72 atm...but thats ok, Im hovering around this for the last little bit and to be honest Im too busy and have a lot of stuff going on to really worry about it, Im still watching my points and counting this and that, but Xmas is next week, so......
Im doing heaps of mens cuts now and I dont freak out anymore...much anyway!! I get a bit scared of the old mowhawk and toddlers but of well hey....
I did 2 female cuts today.. a little girl, straight across, do you know that doing a straight haircut is the hardest to do!! and then I did an older ldy who is growing out her layers...I think i took about 3mill off....not scissor happy yet, too chicken to do the chop!!!lol I winged that one as I was just doing what I thought was right...my seniors just keep saying, you'll be right!!! hmm hope so.
cant wait for my 4 days off over xmas too, will be great.
Took the 3 kids to see the xmas lights and we saw this one house that will have to win,,, it is just magnificant. Beautiful, there was a santa in a sleigh and you can get a photo.. couldnt belive what they had done, besides cost a fortune!!
Still having a lot of trouble with my 15yo...he goes nto the city and stays for days at a time, hates everything and everyone...its not just typical teenager stuff either, he is involved with criminals, he is due for community service. He fights and its just terrible.....i cant believe what he has become and blame myself of course. The whole family is very dissapointed and he knows this which is awful.. he needs help and Im not the person to do it...ive lost my boy im afraid and Im quite sad. I just know he is good deep down but he has just lost his way and we dont get along at all anymore...it was always strained because of the way he is, but it has gone to far now.
Monday, December 14, 2009
300
hmm, 300grams...thats what I added onto myself this week.
Not gunna complain, not gunna bitch, I know whats required but for some unknown fucking reason, I cannot get into the right mind set...what a crock, Im just lazy.
enuff said really
see how this week goes.
Im doing sooooo well....NOT
Not gunna complain, not gunna bitch, I know whats required but for some unknown fucking reason, I cannot get into the right mind set...what a crock, Im just lazy.
enuff said really
see how this week goes.
Im doing sooooo well....NOT
Thursday, December 3, 2009
it was hard!!
Well I did struggle a little but I managed a loss. 500 grams, but that is about my average anyway since I dont exercise yet!! I will soooooon.
71.4, 4.4kilos to go.. good.
I have 3 ladies haircuts in today....shitting myself, but it has to be done...I will move up to 3rd level after Xmas so Im told...which means an extra 100 a week so bring it on! I have 5 foils to do as well, just learning them and I really dont want to do anything cause Im to scared to fuck it up, but if I dont start getting in there, there is no point doing hairdressing!!
71.4, 4.4kilos to go.. good.
I have 3 ladies haircuts in today....shitting myself, but it has to be done...I will move up to 3rd level after Xmas so Im told...which means an extra 100 a week so bring it on! I have 5 foils to do as well, just learning them and I really dont want to do anything cause Im to scared to fuck it up, but if I dont start getting in there, there is no point doing hairdressing!!
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