weigh in

Big deal 700gms again....well i think, my digital numbers are not displaying properly so im guessing...i could take it as 68.3 or 8 but hey i doubt it

so now----69.9 under 70 so thats awesome...not far to go now...thank god.

Ive turned the house upside looking for the warrenty, but as usual i cant find it...dammit, matbe it needs new batteries...i will try that first..hopefully thats it...they are not 12 months old yet.

onward
Food today
cereal
tea
banana
protien shake (half)
tuna on premium
apple
protein shake (half)
brocholi and pasta bake stuff...with cheese in it...yummy

not much more...we have an auction for work tonight, we earned money..monopoly money with services we did and i want a t shirt with our brand of products....heres hoping

other than that that is it.............so far

Keep going keep going!!!

well I have done 15mins on the tready already...motivated plus!!!!

U wanna know why??? My date was HOT, this guy is training for S.W.A.T in the force..i think thats what it is called out here, anyway, he trains 3 hours...yes HOURS!!! every morning, and then works, then does more running and stuff at night....Holy fuck...I was embarrassed by my own body, wondering what the fuck he was meeting me for????? He has 8% body fat ffs....anyway, gives me motivation to keep going..I love it when you can see slight muscles on women...Im gunna get some hand weights this week...I have read that your muscles have memory, so I hope that mine remember how they used to be and bounce back!!lol

He was a really nice guy to, tall as well, which is good for me, cause Im a giraffe!!lol..he talked non stop and it was awesome...we were at the cafe for 4 hours...awesome... hopefully I will see him again?? The only thing that worries me is that he has only just seperated from his wife, long time coming, like everyone, but hmmmmm not sure there??

So food today
egg on toast
tea
apple

so far...

Well my date was really, really nice...he was a genuinly nice guy, the conversation flowed really well, we were there for just over 2 hours...just lovely..I would love to be friends with him, no hesitation to hang out...friendship would be awesome...he was just lovely...a true gentleman. oh well we will see...

So food today
cereal, banana, tea
apple
tuna sanga
??
dinner- Brocholi and chicken..

I still havent lost anymore this week...WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?????? GRRRRRR

only 3 to go. and i know i can get there, ive been there, maybe its harder cause in older?? Huh, NO excuse, I ovioulsy just have to work harder.....GREAT! not.

Oh well, just a bit of housework today, then this arvo, im going to do my friends hair..she has a date as well, and then my date tonight...wow...3 dates in 2 weeks...better not have anymore now for a while.....no shortage of men tho..which is good, i just want friendship at the moment anyway.....maybe one day I'll find mr right???? although this time im not settling for shit, hence really getting to know someone first....not gunna rush in like my last 2...........

No...my son didnt come out..oh well, he reckons Sunday arvo?? we'll see....

so I had a decent breaky today
eggs on toast, cereal and banana and tea.
apple for mid morn
vegie soup for lunch
tuna for mid arvo
brocholi and chicken for dinner.

3kilos to go...3kilos to go...3 kilos to go..............not much but such a lot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


So my date for tonight is on...we are meeting for hot chocolate....oh how nice...this one is a nice guy I think...not very tall..only 5cm taller than me..dam...and he works in mental health, so hope he is ok..the other one, the copper...is getting grief from his ex..hmmmm, do need that shit thats for sure........he hasnt txt much today so might just leave that one alone for a bit. shame..he seems nice to!!

oh well what will be, will be.....

I just ate a ww choc ice cream bar and it was surprisingly nice...and onlky 2.5 points....haha...

shopping

againnnnnnnnnnnnnn

shit I have gone through some money on these holidays....

So my son is coming out tonight...well I hope, he was meant to come tues, then wed, so we'll see?? Im cooking his fave dinner...mac and cheese...mm thats good for me!!!! NOT!!! I will have anly a small amount with lots of brocholi
we had maccas for breaky so NO...i wont be ranting again.....

I made a jacket potatoe, with extra lite sour creme and bit of cheese and sweet chilli sauce for lunch
apple for arvo tea then dinner

then stuff meself again on that tready...30mins again, i might break it up into 15min slots though, i get very bored easily.

i hate food.
i love exercise.

So i havent heard from my date on Friday night...maybe he is not keen on going out...no drama, Im going out with another one on sat night..hes a police officer, so this will be interesting!! lol

I tell these men im only after friendship for now...never know I may like someone eventually.

Cant stand my ex husband and its getting worse...hes a right fuckhead....losing his control, and boo hoo he doesnt like it...he came over the other day, with 6 beers. he proceeded to put them in the fridge and then drink 4 within 20mins...he wouldnt fucking go home, my friend came out to pick her daughter up and he still fucking hung round...i had to tell him I had to get organised for dinner,so he got the hint..then he tried to cuddle and kiss me!!! FUCK OFFF, serfously, how can they be so fucking stupid???????????????????????????????????

drives me insane...how the fuck i lasted so long with him is beyond me????????????????



still fat.....

rant coming

Im so mad with myself....

I ate chocolate today and now im annoyed with myself................i just needed something sweet!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Ive just stuffed myself on the treadmill by doing 7.2kph running, and walking at 6kph....then i get off and look in the mirror and fucking want to VOMMIT...now ive got a headache and feel sick cause i pushed myself to hard....


Im sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Fat

AND I WILL NEVER BE SKINNY ENOUGH.

rants not finished but i feel sick so im going..............................................................................



fat fat fat fat fat fat fat yuk

.....

i ran for a full 5mins!!! doesnt seem much..but to me thats awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So im having an all protien today

Food
eggs
tea
tea
ham
tuna
chicken
cheese
tea


we'll see how it goes.......

Just gotta keep exercising....only 3-4kilos to go....

I'll get there..

Edit,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

Na, didnt like all protien...to structured....so i had a ham, cheese and tomato roll for lunch and crumpets for morning tea... I think i do better if i just do it my way......i will run/walk again tonight......I was looking at my old measurements...I have 8cms to lose off my hips....shit thats heaps.....and another 5cm of me waist.....been there before so im not worried.

all in good time!