free week

I fucked up this week and now I have to keep going..Im not weighin in..well I did and its not good.

Im joining the gym tomorow...cant wait..I need a professional to help me with the shaping of my body I think....a lot of help is needed. Mind you I dont know when I am gunna find the time to go, what with the kids and all that but I will work sumthing out...

I ate chocolate today..emotional eating..dammit

one of my workmates was talking to a PT and she has said to lose weight you need to eat the following for 4 days

2 eggs
50g chicken
100gm chicken n green vegies
50gm chicken
100gm chicken and grenn veg

hmm..Ive done somthing very similar and the weight does come off...might start that tomorow......



I want to get to 65kilos.

and I fucking will too.

tomorow..

I'll weigh in
I slept in and jumped right into the shower and ran around like a blu ass fly!!

just smashed it up on my tready I ran at 8.2KPH!!!!!!!! fucking yeah!!!
I did my arm work tonight to..


I'll get there...regardless of what my scales say tomorow....

which by the way is gunna be BIG>>>>>>><>

all good......its a process:)

hmmmm

what a big weekend I have had with entertaining and its gunna show tomorow with weigh in..so I might not even look...not game really as a set back will just knock me out again.

dam dam and dam.

I am supossed to have tomorow off, but i have to go to the city for a cutting course..dam even more...love my days off..but this is for a great reason.

Still struggling with doing my apprenticeship..Im just really not sure if i want to do it, but then ive come so far..blah blah...my hands a really suffering tho, dermititis, its fucking awful and embarassing, looks terrible..

oh well.

New day tomorow, I will put this weekend behind me and all the wrong foods I ate and the wine i drank....oh man its just getting worse!!!
arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

what else??

Man...what else can I do to get rid of this FAT...im running and walking twice a day...its just not fast enough...and by the fucking way...NO ONE noticed Im 3kgs lighter FFS...jesus Ive got to lose another 5 for it to be noticable????? Bloody hell

Oh well...JUST KEEP GOING!!!!!

I will to
Food today
cereal banana and tea
almonds
tuna sanga
cuppa vegie soup
apple
tea
baked potato, with extra lite sour cream and sweet chilli an 1 rissole. YUM

Ive done 40mins all up on that fuckin treadmill....still not thin!!!!!

all good...another 2 weeks ill be lighter again...then another 2 weeks and so on and so fourth

Im getting back into bike riding to..I need to get my bike from my ex..will do that on the weekend. Bike riding at least will help more to.

Im even thinking i might join the gym..not sure yet..time is limited

Im also really thinking about work..Im just not sure i want to do it anymore..i do but i dont..I think i really miss being a stay at home mum with the kids and i can thank my fuckhead ex husband for that..while he was earning over 100K..he told me to get a job and start contributing as he had done it for long enough...SELFISH PRICK. we had said i wouldnt go back to work til C was at school...but no, as usual he was always changing the goal posts..FUCKIN ASSHOLE..so now ive missed all this time with my babies..assssshhhoooolllleeeeeeeeee.....
and meanwhile all the money i earned went in DAYCARE...what a fucking idiot.

Men mate..most of them really have no fucking idea. I think he was just jealous i was at home with his children and he was 'working his ass off'...as i heard every second day.


WANKER.

THANK FUCK HE'S OUTTA MY LIFE.

weigh in

Big deal 700gms again....well i think, my digital numbers are not displaying properly so im guessing...i could take it as 68.3 or 8 but hey i doubt it

so now----69.9 under 70 so thats awesome...not far to go now...thank god.

Ive turned the house upside looking for the warrenty, but as usual i cant find it...dammit, matbe it needs new batteries...i will try that first..hopefully thats it...they are not 12 months old yet.

onward
Food today
cereal
tea
banana
protien shake (half)
tuna on premium
apple
protein shake (half)
brocholi and pasta bake stuff...with cheese in it...yummy

not much more...we have an auction for work tonight, we earned money..monopoly money with services we did and i want a t shirt with our brand of products....heres hoping

other than that that is it.............so far

Keep going keep going!!!

well I have done 15mins on the tready already...motivated plus!!!!

U wanna know why??? My date was HOT, this guy is training for S.W.A.T in the force..i think thats what it is called out here, anyway, he trains 3 hours...yes HOURS!!! every morning, and then works, then does more running and stuff at night....Holy fuck...I was embarrassed by my own body, wondering what the fuck he was meeting me for????? He has 8% body fat ffs....anyway, gives me motivation to keep going..I love it when you can see slight muscles on women...Im gunna get some hand weights this week...I have read that your muscles have memory, so I hope that mine remember how they used to be and bounce back!!lol

He was a really nice guy to, tall as well, which is good for me, cause Im a giraffe!!lol..he talked non stop and it was awesome...we were at the cafe for 4 hours...awesome... hopefully I will see him again?? The only thing that worries me is that he has only just seperated from his wife, long time coming, like everyone, but hmmmmm not sure there??

So food today
egg on toast
tea
apple

so far...

Well my date was really, really nice...he was a genuinly nice guy, the conversation flowed really well, we were there for just over 2 hours...just lovely..I would love to be friends with him, no hesitation to hang out...friendship would be awesome...he was just lovely...a true gentleman. oh well we will see...

So food today
cereal, banana, tea
apple
tuna sanga
??
dinner- Brocholi and chicken..

I still havent lost anymore this week...WHAT AM I DOING WRONG?????? GRRRRRR

only 3 to go. and i know i can get there, ive been there, maybe its harder cause in older?? Huh, NO excuse, I ovioulsy just have to work harder.....GREAT! not.

Oh well, just a bit of housework today, then this arvo, im going to do my friends hair..she has a date as well, and then my date tonight...wow...3 dates in 2 weeks...better not have anymore now for a while.....no shortage of men tho..which is good, i just want friendship at the moment anyway.....maybe one day I'll find mr right???? although this time im not settling for shit, hence really getting to know someone first....not gunna rush in like my last 2...........