im a blubbering mess and shouldnt be writing here but i may feel better
I have divorced my husband, well I have signed and im waiting for him to sign and that will be the end...this is sad in itself..not sure why i feel like this but i do..
he has a new girfriend and my kids have met her and she has bought them things and she did my daughters hair..this makes me sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo angry..
we spoke about introducing the kids to people and decided against it..well thats what i thought..im fucking devastated...I have been so good latley with my confidance and feeling good about myself..but now after this I feel like im back in Feb last year and not wanting to be here..i had to pick them up from his house the arvo and once again I couldnt eben look at him..i was fucking crying for fuck sake....i think Im just jealous...it cant be anything else right?
The thing is, thats really upsetting me is the fact that this new bitch has 2 children....he couldnt even commit back to me, and we had a family for 7 years.....i just wonder what is wrong with me? i must be just a horrible person...i just feel like im ugly and fat and now I'll be left on the shelf....what is it that i just cant be happy in life?
I just want to be happy and share my life with someone....i have no one to talk to when the kids go to bed...
ive been on a few dates..but they never call me back...whuch is good cuz I havent clicked with anyone yet....
ive got such a headache errgghhh...anyway...i'll be right
right?
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{HUGS} I don't think you are jealous of HIM, it's just that his new girlfriend is messing with YOUR kids!
ReplyDeleteThat would drive me nuts too.
So sorry.... you are not to put yourself down... remember, how you feel reflects back at other people.
Start telling yourself you are gorgeous, and bloody well believe it!
Ohh Em hunny, i sooooo wish id checked back to blogland before now and been here when you were feeling this bad **hugs** i strongly believe that EVERYTHING happens for a reason.... and whilst we are in the midst of sorrow, grief, hardship, anger... or whatever it is at the time we may not see it, but as we move through the badtimes we eventually come to a new happy place, only then can we look back on what weve been through and see how we grew and made it through. Please dont look at this as you werent good enough, because hunny you are TOO GOOD to put up with the things he put you through over and over again... onwards my sweet... just keep pressing forward, live life hun, dont let it pass you by, because weather we choose to get out there amongst it or sit back and watch one thing is certain, life does go on, with or without us!
ReplyDeleteThings will get better, and easier sweets xxxxx