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Ergh, another LONG thursday night...I hate Thursday night trading....boring and long and well im to fucking old to stand on my tired old feet allllll day yeukkkk... hating.

anyway not to worry, I'll try not to complain as there is nothing wrong with me or my children and I have a roof, food and clothes for everyone...im trying to remember that as there are so many unfortunate people out there....like the other week a boy of 18, hung hhimself as his life was perfect to the outside world... I feel for his mum, oh how she must be feeling....anyway enough of that. Im thankful is all im saying...

So I did barrel curls to day and lots of haircuts. short back and sides, Im getting really good at them now and I still get all freaked out when a guy walks in and Ide rather go and hide out the back till one of the other girls does it but no, I am pushed all the time, which is good as thats what I need as Im a chicken with no confidence....HA! I'll get over it?? I was really scared whn I first started cutting mens hair and I'' be like that till I learn it all, then I'll still have to learn more...you never know it all in hairdressing I dont think, things chage all the time...

Oh and I still cant work out how to cross things off when I type....anyone??you know how you put a line thru but can still read it??

frustrated much!!!

I need new scales..they are not giving me an acurate reading and i dont like not knowing how fat I am!!!! Im untoned and totally yuk, but in all honesty I dont really care? Sure I would love to be tone and thin and yadda, yadda..but truth is, Im fucking over it....Ive been obsessed with weight and weight watchers and food and calories and allllll the rest that goes with it for soooooo loooonnnggg and I dont give a fuck cause if I did Ide be excersising my ass off and writing all my food each day in my lil old trusty diary....get fucked I say, Im so busy and Ive got soooooooo much going on in my life at the moment that the pressures of weightloss is just a bit to much Im afraid.


Went to tafe today which is something very weird as the teacher usually comes to us once a month, it was OK,, Im bored outta my brain with hairdressing at the moment to. Im so far behind again......Im back down to level 2 after going up to level 3. That was an insult in itself. I have to prove my 'worth' on the floor and make 4 times my wage in a week...fucking yeah right. I am a very nervous and unconfidant person when it comes to hairdressing...everything else Im fine but this is different....its awful and I hate being like this....bit its just how it is at the moment.. I was doing french rolls and barrel curls allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll day..BORING!!! Dont like upstyles...

Thursday night shopping

For some anyway.... I have to work and I dont like it one bit!!

9am to at least 8.30pm...yeuk... anyway on til Im qualified:)

Had a small cheeseburger meal ont he way home from work..not good but filled a hole that probably wasnt there anyway..

I had my own male client tonight for a cut and shoeshine.. worked out ok although the shoeshine should have been toned, to gold for my liking but he didnt complain...maybe when he gets home and his wife sees it???? oh well we shall see...

I have the morning of till 12pm tomorow,,,awesome, I really would just like to work part time, but my apprent. would go for waaay to long if I did it part time...no thanks, I just want to get it ova with! Im really nervous with the cutting side of things and my teacher says its cause Im a mature apprentice and I dont want to make a mistake or just have a go at any thing and if it works it works if not oh well... hmm yep thats about right to:)

How do I write something and put a line through it and you can see it still?? I forget.

Havent blogged for ages.

I think me scales are broken, I jumped on them before my coffee and I was 71.9 (ouch) and then after my coffe before my shower, just wanted to see the difference and I was 71.1 hmmmmmm not right... I will go by measurements I think??

To fat to put them up yet. I got to 67 and stayed there for ages and all of a sudden Im nearly 72 for fuck sake...not good, so I have to get a bit serious.... hmm cheeseburgers??// no, no more of them this week..lol span <>

Im Bacccckkkkkkkk!!!!

Im inspired once more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



By this wonderful woman!!! Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ive missed blogging. Im off track weightwise, my hairdressing apprenticeship is going well...sort of...still a lot to learn, Im cutting mens hair and just learning ladies cutting....scary as.......gotta go and get dinner now will be back later!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!